On Death and Suffering and the Justness of God

This is what I know:

Everything we are we are because we die

And never know for sure of any God or any heaven.

That if you wonder how God could allow suffering--

Death is made worse by suffering but there is no suffering worse than death--

If death is allowed anything must be allowed.

If we did not die, we would not exist.

We want to let God off the hook.
If death is allowed the unrelievable suffering of the mind
Is allowed. Can eternal justice tolerate this?
I do not know. Today
The suffering is real. And yet

If one morning I awake to find this suffering

Is like the suffering of any nightmare--then
What?